With 2017 well underway at this point (hello February!), we’ve officially hit the mid-winter doldrums at school. Still, I’m looking forward to a break coming up, and a short month will probably feel better too, especially as the days grow longer by small increments.
I’ve mentioned time and again that a full embrace of life in Colorado has come along a bit slower than I expected, and it’s challenged me, but that I need/want to bridge that gap this year. One major piece that will give me more of a sense of stability and direction is now in place (at least for the next 12 months) – the job front! Basically, I feel as though I’ve been looking for a future job for the past 15 months. Even when I’ve had a job (last spring and throughout this academic year), the situation seemed uncertain and left me feeling unsatisfied. I haven’t had a full-time contract for this year, and I signed it fully aware of that situation, but it’s chaffed to not be truly invested in the community and in teaching. A large part of my sense of dissatisfaction stems from the fact that I’ve felt guilty about not contributing to our household finances (this is full disclosure here!), but it also goes deeper than that. At my last school and even the Swiss gig, I felt over,-involved, which I loved. People (teachers) often bitch and moan about that aspect of teaching, but it’s also something that most teachers enjoy – or they wouldn’t do it. For me, being “all in” regarding the school community energizes me while taking a more laissez-faire attitude has the opposite effect, leaving me with a sense of inertia. So, that’s a long explanation to say that I’ve had an offer that for the next 2 years. It will, yes, keep me teaching middle school Spanish (sigh – that is another topic altogether!) but will also give me a sense of stability and focus. Continue reading “That commitment piece”